You’re the reason why I lost my faith! But I take responsibility as well for letting myself lose faith! I made you my everything! I forgot the world and made you my world! I tried getting back into the world by going tithe next guy! Like I normally would! But this guys did me so wrong! I’m trying to forgive and forget, to let go of the hurt and pain! I don’t know why I waited SOOO long! I’m sorry Lord, sorry abba! My one true father! I can’t believe I almost made myself the enemy of the Lord, the enemy of my father! The worshiper of the world! Going against everything I believed! Believing I wasn’t worth it when I am! I’m a shepherdess! That’s what the lord has called upon for me to do! And I will NOT! And I repeat will NOT forget such a wonderful thing! I love my father God! He’s the one always there for me, he’s the reason I’m still alive and the reason I didn’t take the blade straight down my wrist! The reason why I’m straight edge! The reason behind why I don’t believe in pre-marital sex! No one has ever cared for me the way he does and Lord I’m sorry I strayed away for long, 4 months of questioning you, of not caring about your ways! Please Lord forgive me for I have sinned and as a sinner I kneel down and beg for this forgiveness Throw away my burden, my questions, my doubt, my demonic ways, my every single bad move Lord I throw it all your way so I can be FORGIVEN, so I can come home! So I can be your child, the child of the Lord, our God, the King of Kings, the one who died on the cross so that I can have eternal life in your name!